Becoming a Mother

It's amazing that last year on Mother's Day I was about 10 weeks pregnant and dreaming about my twins.  A year later I am the very proud mother of two wonderful almost 6 month old babies.  During the past six months I've gone through quite a transformation.  My priorities, my identity, and my relationships have all changed.  All because I became a mother.  I have to say I didn't totally get it at first.  What people don't tell you is that it isn't like in the movies...laughing and smiling, baby slung on the hip dream (when is it ever though?).  It takes time to fully grasp and embrace being a mother. What I mean is that I did everything a mother does with her children...bounced, played, laughed, cuddled, cried, changed, fed, rocked and loved my kiddos, but I was holding on to the other me.  The woman who loved her job, did what she wanted when she wanted, went out to nice dinners, had drinks with girlfriends, went on vacations, and lived for her husband.  It took me some time to let her go. 

One day John took the babies to his parents house and I had the entire day to myself.  He kept asking, "What are you going to do?"  I honestly had no idea so I did what I used to do.  Got up, took time getting ready, dressing up, and went shopping.  At first I enjoyed shopping and my time out.  I ate a leisurely lunch in peace and quiet but found my mind wandering to the twins.  I finished shopping, went home, and sat down on the couch to catch up on some of my favorite shows.  I found the house eerily quiet.  By the time John called to say he was on his way back I actually missed the chaos.  He walked in the door with the twins and I couldn't get my hands on them fast enough.  That day I finally let the old me go and fully embraced my new title, "Mom."  Nothing is more important then taking care of my children.  Every day has it challenges but every day has its rewards.  I have never loved someone so unconditionally and so fully as I love my twins.  And I have my wonderful husband to thank for them.  I wouldn't change one late night, dirty diaper, or cry-a-thon because they are worth every second of it.  I would much rather spend the day with my twins on the floor playing, not showered, in jeans and a t-shirt then dressed up and shopping.  I've come to realize that my life before my babies was nice, but my life with my babies is lovely.

My first Mother's Day

The George's at brunch  

Grammy, Clara, and Uncle Jay at Brunch

Grandma and Georgie at brunch

 

Grandpa and Clara Bear at brunch
 

Daddy and Georgie at brunch