38 Weeks!

I am 38.5 weeks pregnant with our little guy.  He is officially full term and all his little organs are developed.  The time left he has in my belly is so he can continue to put on weight in preparation for the world. At my appointment today his heart beat was strong and I've gained 26 pounds.  We are making no progress towards labor at this point.  I guess he is pretty comfy in there!  If I haven't delivered by my next appointment, we will discuss inducing.  This little guy may need some coaxing to enter the world!

I have to say this pregnancy has been such a blessing.   We've had a great experience.  I've been able to enjoy almost every moment of it (I'll exclude those first weeks of illness).   While I tried to enjoy the twins' pregnancy the reality is that it was tough on my body and it was an emotional roller coaster.  I am thankful I've been able to relish in this one because it very well could be my last.

It is definitely a challenge now to chase after two three year olds with a full term belly.  Most days I manage but some days my hormones and exhaustion get the better of me.  I've had a few pregnant lady meltdowns but I won't beat myself up for those moments. I am so ready to meet out little guy. With every cramp or random contraction, I am constantly wondering if this may be "it." 

This morning before getting ready for school, George, Clara, and I had some snuggle time on the couch.  George was sitting on my lap leaning back against my big belly and Clara was sitting next to me leaning against the side of my big belly and it suddenly hit me.  These next few days are the last days we have together as a family of four.  I took a few minutes just to breath in my little monkeys.  Snuggled them a little closer.  Kissed their little heads.  Told them how much I love them.  I know there will soon be a time where we barely remember what life was like without our youngest kiddo.  While that comforts me, it also makes me feel sad too.

What an adventure these past three years have been with our two incredibly amazing kiddos.  They turned John and I into better people.  Our focus completely shifted beyond ourselves and onto two little people who hold our hearts in their hands.  Life has been different and challenging and beautiful and fulfilling and exhausting and full of love.  Becoming a mother and watching my two kiddos grow is by far the most fulfilling and amazing experience of my life.  I am looking forward to starting this journey all over again with our little guy, but I think I will savor these last days of my sweet little family of four.